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February 5, 2010
Finding Your Tribe
Your Allies On Life’s Journey
Our tribe members are those people who accept us as we are and gladly accompany us on our journeys of evolution.
Part of being human is the search for an individual identity. Bound to this strong need to establish a unique persona, however, is an equally intense desire [...]
Katy, Tx–January 20, 2010–Have you ever wondered where soldiers go when they retreat? When they need to step away from the battlefield and care for their wounded? When they must crawl out from their fox holes and away from the blazing fire falling down upon their heads?
Sometimes it’s not even by choice these brave few must pull up their gear and fall back. No sometimes it’s about survival, the chance to fight another day. To recoup losses, call in reinforcements and then charge the enemy one more time.
I have often wondered why retreat has seemed inconceivable and why it is so bitter sweet… that is until now. For the last few years I have been fighting, wounded, stitched together and branded all while advancing forward with my sisters in arms. Digging myself in behind the enemies lines has never been a question. I have never thought twice about this battle leading to the next one ahead of us. I have lived day to day amazed by the power and conviction of these women who have both lived and died beside me in these trenches. Together we have barred arms, shared our hopes, dreaded the cold nights and carried those we have lost from the battle field…. TOGETHER! How precious my sisters are to me and it is their strength which has given me strength to carry on from one battlefield to the next.
Up until recently I have never entertained the idea of retreat.
I admit I have been in hiding for the last few months. No, I did not set out to hide myself away from the world nor did I intend to stay away for so long. Honestly when it comes down to the nitty gritty I needed time to soul search, to heal inwardly and to allow my strength to build back up. Sadly, my body has tired, it is sick and yes it has become weary but I will tell you my soul is stronger for the journey, for the battles I have fought and for the lives of those whom have touched my own. True I may have come to the dark end of the forest right now and yes I may have been broken, but I have also found solace in my retreat, a different kind of strength I did not know existed before today. The truth is even in the act of retreat there is no shame. Today as I take up arms and return behind the enemy’s lines I feel a strong comradely with these women I have fought side by side with. The truth is this: we are indeed a band of sisters.
So maybe it’s time to bark at the moon, to share a drink and to take back the ground our common enemy has taken from us. Maybe it’s time to pull out the T shirt folded in the drawer stating, we’re too busy to die. Honest to bitsy sister I have no intension of allowing this beast to steal one more ounce of moxy from me again!
My experience with this enemy has been fierce and through most of the advances I have stayed defiant. From the start of my battle against this beast I never hide the fact I was defiant, openly and boldly resisting all the enemies’ advances. Well girls I think its times to rejoin the battle on the front lines! The only real peace of mind are truly going to find in this crazy fight against breast cancer is that we have given it our all, stayed the course, defiant and never regretted a moment of it!
Ralph Waldo Emerson once said, “When it is darkest, men see the stars.”
I do believe I have finally seen the stars…
Christina
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January 11, 2010
Finding Time for You
Your Most Vital Commitment
Within each of there is a well of energy that must be regularly replenished. When we act as if this well is bottomless, scheduling a long list of activities that fit like puzzle pieces into every minute of every day, it becomes depleted and we feel exhausted, [...]
Knowing Better Now
The Past in Light of the Present
When we look back at the past, knowing what we know now, we often find it difficult to understand how we made the mistakes we made. This is because once we learn new information, it is nearly impossible to reenter the headspace we were in before we [...]
December 24, 2009
Treasures of Friendship
Letters from the Heart
Sometimes it’s hard to come straight out and tell our friends how much we love and appreciate them. We might feel awkward expressing deep feelings, even to our nearest and dearest, because it is not a common practice. We might get choked up or embarrassed in the process, [...]
December 17, 2009
Rediscovering Dance
Healing with Movement
As children, most of us were encouraged to dance on a regular basis, freely and openly, in whatever way felt best. A few of us may have retained or regained our ability to engage in dancing unselfconsciously, but by the time we reach adulthood, many of us have stopped dancing [...]
December 14, 2009
A Warm Refuge
Best Friends
By the time we reach adulthood, many of us have had the good fortune to have at least one best friend. If we have moved around or changed our life situation repeatedly, we may be lucky enough to have had several. The best friend relationship is often our earliest intimate [...]
December 8, 2009
The Impossible Dream
Right in Front of You
When it comes to the things we want, there always seems to be an endless list. No matter how many times we get something off that list, we add new things to replace it. In life, this drama of wanting and getting and wanting is all part [...]
December 4, 2009
Freeing Our Inner Desires
Using Our Outside Voice
Each of us has developed an internal filtering process that helps us choose which parts of our constant inner monologues get voiced outside of our heads. Sometimes the choice is based on what we consider to be polite or appropriate, using subtlety instead of directness to try [...]
December 1, 2009
Everything You Do Matters
The Ripple Effect
In a world of six billion people, it’s easy to believe that the only way to initiate profound transformation is to take extreme action. Each of us, however, carries within us the capacity to change the world in small ways for better or worse. Everything we do and [...]
November 26, 2009
Finding Unqualified Happiness
If Only
Since most of our experiences are rooted in cause and effect, we naturally want to justify our contentment. We envision grand circumstances, stating that if only we could achieve this goal or obtain that possession, we would finally be in a position to attain happiness. As a result, satisfaction is [...]
November 25, 2009
Leaving a Positive Footprint
Blessing Space
Physical space acts like a sponge, absorbing the radiant of all who pass through it. And, more likely than not, the spaces we move through each day have seen many people come and go. We have no way of knowing whether the energy footprints left behind by those who [...]
